I could have never imagined a more shocking display than what I walked into and yet...somehow I know that I was meant to see it. I thought you felt something for me. Dare I say it...I thought you loved me. When I happened upon you and him, I was shocked to the very core.

Clothes strewn everywhere, your bodies pressed against each other, the way he moaned your name as you slowly thrust in and out of him. I was mesmorized. Your hands grazed his thighs as you kissed the tip of his swollen cock and slowly brought your lovely lips down his shaft. His shudders and cries gave me chills; you've never made me scream like that. I couldn't look away and before I knew it I found myself sneaking out to watch you two every night. I hid among the bushes and watched as your hidden desires manifested with Miroku.

I thought the day I came back through the well that we were going to be together and that you had waited for me for all of these years. I should have known you'd find comfort in the houshi. Seeing you together like this, I understand perfectly.

The look of satisfaction upon each of your faces says it all. You don't know that I'm watching you and if you knew you'd probably apologize and try to make it up to me. That's so like you Inuyasha, always trying to make me happy even though I never knew that you were so miserable. How could I have been so blind?

I don't know whether to be disgusted or heartbroken. Am I not good enough for you? I know I don't have the experience that Miroku has, nor do I have his way with words. I thought that didn't matter. I thought our love could conquor all. I was wrong.

Maybe I'll go find my own comfort in someone else too. Is that what you've been trying to tell me when you'd gaze at me from across the fire? Your golden eyes were reflecting not only the fire itself, but the sorrow you felt for me. Do not feel sorry for me Inuyasha, I will be fine.

I will find someone who will be their for me. I have to believe that, I want to believe that. Do not fear for me. I will not be alone forever.